I guess this is a continuation of my "i miss you monday" post. I love love love London but I'm having quite the hard time balancing my life here and the people I left back at home.
And the people I left are having a hard time balancing me being gone.
Without going in to boring detail, I decided to give my more-than-just-a-friend guy some space for a few days. Part of me is determined to focus this extra time, mentality & energy on the positive, and while at the same time I feel like part of me is broken. I'm finding it really hard to take a break from talking to someone that I've talked to everyday for almost 4 years.
I might feel broken, but I have a whole weekend full of adventures with my roommates to beautiful Leeds Castle & historic Canterbury - and I'm not going to let a semi-broken heart keep me from living it up while in London.
Don't worry. Everything will work itself out for you. Just concentrate on having fun this weekend. Chances are you'll have so much fun that all the things you're worrying about won't even cross your mind.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was in London, at first I didn't want to go because I was afraid to be away from my mom. Yeah yeah I was 19 and wanted my mommy haha but then I thought about it and decided it's now or never. It's bound to happen eventually so get it over with. And of course, I was sad saying goodbye to her, but the excitement of the trip there then actually being there it didn't even cross my mind that I was missing her. I think the 'omg i'm here' mixed with the jet lag emotions and the constant go-go-go all the time there took my mind off it. It wasn't until I called her at night before bed that I realized how much I missed her. But I knew to live it up there, and not to dwell on bad emotions because I'd see the people I love soon.
Have fun this weekend!
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